As mentioned on Sat I was pretty hungover from my Friday Night Birthday shenanigans and spent the morning sleeping and doing nothing. In the afternoon I was off on an excursion with my dancing girls. We have a show coming up soon and we were off to Oxford St to buy costumes. The shop we were buying from was like a mini heaven to me, feathers, sequins, disco balls, pretty, pretty, pretty. Finding a costume to fit my fat arse was a different story!! For those that don't know, the dancing that I do is Brazilian Samba - you know the girls in the g-strings and feathers!!! Yep that's what they want me to wear - ARRRRRGGGGHHH!!!!!!!
All the girls were trying on these teeny tiny costumes that were stunning and I was secretly freaking out while trying to play cool at the same time, It's not that all the girls are super stick thin girls, they all just have flat stomachs and smaller boobs. After picking through the g-strings and so called bra's, I eventually found a couple of dresses that I quite liked and one of them fit me YAY - only problem, it was backless and let me tell you now - I ain't dancing without a bra on, but it was so pretty, a whole front of sequins and then a feathered skirt and it could be made in pink and everything, however long story short - Nat (my gorgeous russian dance teacher) decided that she wants us all in the same costume - hence my photo of the day. 
I am expected to wear this in October this year - insert a trillion expletives, I think it is gorgeous but just not on someone like me, and because my bloody boobs are so big, I have to get a top custom made to fit by bringing in my own bra. I have no idea how I am expected to find the confidence to wear something this skimpy between now and October, for goodness sake, I don't even wear a bikini in summer - I wear boardies. As much as I would like to lose a bit of weight I don't have the motiviation to go on such a mega diet that would be required for me to feel confident in this - so I'm not really sure what I'm going to do - beside just being healthier overall (which I'm trying to do) and hoping that I lose some weight, In my head -I have 3 other options1. Not eat for the next month (never going to happen LOL)
2. Buy a flesh coloured body suit - but then I think it will look weird as all the other girls are getting fake tans and I think it would accentuate my weight/ uncomfortableness even more
3. Suck it up and hope for the best.
My other stress about this costume nightmare is it costs $150 - something I just don't have to spend on a costume! So watch this space and I'll keep you updated with the next instalment of my costume nightmare!
The rest of my day was fabo, I had a drink with one of the dancing girls on our way home - then went to an engagement party where I had a great time and actually had one of the best ab workouts I've had in ages laughing at my friends Tara and Matt! I also had a good chat tonight with my friend Emma who was the one who got me started on this project - it's nice to be able to share this journey with someone else is is struggling with similar things (time, motivation, making it interesting). Emma is actually shooting with mostly manual functions on her camera - I'm still working out how to use these functions but hopefully over the next few months I too can go fully manual. Emma also has a blog - http://emmaandtheirwins.blogspot.com/ - if you want to see another 365 project in the making!
cheers Donna
ooh! thanks!
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