Need more time in the day!!!

Ok - I'm going to try and make these post's brief as I am still behind - sounding a bit like a broken record but I have run out of downloads for the month and don't feel comfortable doing this at work - so I am catching up at my parents house tonight as they have a larger internet download than I do. But of course I have verbal typing diarrhoea and can't just write short posts!!

I am starting to feel a bit more positive about taking photo's - just wish I could do it as a full time career - that would make me so happy - but I would need to improve my skills extensively if this dream was ever to come true!!

Day 88 - 29th October - Babushka's

Didn't get home til late again tonight and wasn't really sure what to photograph - then these jumped out at me.  At first I was just taking the white measuring cup ones then I thought I would get my real Russian dolls and put them all together.  I have two lot's of Babushka's - the first I got when I was really young from one of my Aunty's who travelled overseas - the second was from my lovely friends Jo & Iain when they went to Russia a few years ago - you can see the difference in age in the doll's and I am missing one of these - Miss Jemima was playing with them one day and who knows where in my house it ended up!!.  The white ones are measuring cups and they sit on my bench like this and I do actually use them - much nicer than the plain old ones stuck in a drawer.   

Day 89 - Friday 28th October - Halloween

Had a Halloween party today, in contradiction to my last statement, I actually wasn't really in the mood to be taking photo's as I had a crappy day at work and was feeling a bit blah.  The party was great - got to catch up with all my young friends and spent some time hanging with my lovely friend Erin before the party and I looked HOT!!!  All this working out at dance and having a spray tan made me feel awesome - this links to tomorrow's photo also - but back to today, I was wearing this lovely little skull around my neck as I was dressed as a cannibal and so I set him up against the candle and put on the candle effect on my camera - I think it is a really funky photo.

Day 90 - Sat 29th October - Looking Down

I totally forgot to get a photo of me at the party with my friends and all dressed up so when I got home I put my costume back on and took a few self portraits - of course they didn't work out because of the light and the angle of my mirror but as I really like my leg's at the moment and had been paid heaps of compliments about how good they looked throughout the night - I decided to take a photo looking down at my legs - looking down is also a topic on my back up idea's list.  I love how you can just see the line of feathers and how it makes my leg's look long when really they are not. 

Had my first big performance tonight at my dance school - the feathers are part of my costume as per one of my previous posts.  It went really well, we had a Halloween party and I got up and shook my bootie - had a minor costume malfunction just before the show - as I have lost a bit of weight lately my skirt is now too big for me and I had to be pinned into it but otherwise all went well.  Next we have to perform in public at my local shopping centre - need to get Mum to fix my costume first though!!

Day 91 - Sun 30th October - Chhheeeessseee
Have been looking forward to today for awhile.  It is my beautiful friend Robyn's engagement party in the domain and Tina, the kids and I are heading down for a picnic in the park and catching up with some old friends.  It was such a beautiful day - the sun was shining, I was wearing a new dress, my spray tan is still looking good and we got to catch up with some beautiful friends.  I love seeing all my old buddies as they know you so well and I am fortunate enough to have wonderful people that come and go in my life and still remain good friends even though we might not talk all the time or only see each other every few months/ years.  Was hard to decide which photo to publish today - my best photo or the photo of my friends.  I decided to go with this photo of Miss Jemima as this is her favourite pose for taking photo's - she always scrunches her face up and yells out CHEESE!!

Day 20 - Costume Nightmare

This is a bit of a delayed post as I am writing this on Monday - but for those that know me well you may find this little story amusing!

As mentioned on Sat I was pretty hungover from my Friday Night Birthday shenanigans and spent the morning sleeping and doing nothing.  In the afternoon I was off on an excursion with my dancing girls.  We have a show coming up soon and we were off to Oxford St to buy costumes.  The shop we were buying from was like a mini heaven to me, feathers, sequins, disco balls, pretty, pretty, pretty.  Finding a costume to fit my fat arse was a different story!!  For those that don't know, the dancing that I do is Brazilian Samba - you know the girls in the g-strings and feathers!!! Yep that's what they want me to wear - ARRRRRGGGGHHH!!!!!!! 

All the girls were trying on these teeny tiny costumes that were stunning and I was secretly freaking out while trying to play cool at the same time, It's not that all the girls are super stick thin girls, they all just have flat stomachs and smaller boobs.  After picking through the g-strings and so called bra's, I eventually found a couple of dresses that I quite liked and one of them fit me YAY - only problem, it was backless and let me tell you now - I ain't dancing without a bra on, but it was so pretty, a whole front of sequins and then a feathered skirt and it could be made in pink and everything, however long story short - Nat (my gorgeous russian dance teacher) decided that she wants us all in the same costume - hence my photo of the day. 

I am expected to wear this in October this year - insert a trillion expletives, I think it is gorgeous but just not on someone like me, and because my bloody boobs are so big, I have to get a top custom made to fit by bringing in my own bra.  I have no idea how I am expected to find the confidence to wear something this skimpy between now and October, for goodness sake, I don't even wear a bikini in summer - I wear boardies.  As much as I would like to lose a bit of weight I don't have the motiviation to go on such a mega diet that would be required for me to feel confident in this - so I'm not really sure what I'm going to do - beside just being healthier overall (which I'm trying to do) and hoping that I lose some weight, In my head -I have 3 other options

1. Not eat for the next month (never going to happen LOL)
2. Buy a flesh coloured body suit - but then I think it will look weird as all the other girls are getting fake tans and I think it would accentuate my weight/ uncomfortableness even more
3. Suck it up and hope for the best.

My other stress about this costume nightmare is it costs $150 - something I just don't have to spend on a costume!  So watch this space and I'll keep you updated with the next instalment of my costume nightmare!

The rest of my day was fabo, I had a drink with one of the dancing girls on our way home - then went to an engagement party where I had a great time and actually had one of the best ab workouts I've had in ages laughing at my friends Tara and Matt!  I also had a good chat tonight with my friend Emma who was the one who got me started on this project - it's nice to be able to share this journey with someone else is is struggling with similar things (time, motivation, making it interesting).  Emma is actually shooting with mostly manual functions on her camera - I'm still working out how to use these functions but hopefully over the next few months I too can go fully manual.  Emma also has a blog - http://emmaandtheirwins.blogspot.com/ - if you want to see another 365 project in the making!
cheers Donna